At the end of the day, as a musician with authenticity - it is not about how many albums I sell or if people still like my music in 10 years. I know that my value is not determined by if anybody likes my music at all, or how successful I am in music. You have value even of society does not understand that.
Recently there was a concert at a college that I played before lockdown started. The lady brought her daughter who has developmental disabilities to this concert. The girl got agitated during one of the sing-along songs called Bird song. The staff was trying to figure out if she should leave but luckily they were able to get her to calm down and she stayed for the rest of the performance. I met the girl after the concert and she started crying. Her mom said that they listen to my music every day and the girl started playing violin because she loved my music. All of a sudden it dawned on me, why she was agitated during the concert. I asked her: ‘oh were you really excited during the concert because you love that Bird song and that is why you were moving around?’ The girl nodded because she was not even able to talk.
People assume if you cannot speak or you have developmental disability, that you do not have a rich inner life, but that is not true at all. She has as deep level of emotions as I do even if she cannot speak about them. Her inner life is just as deep and just as important as mine. She is a person who really likes music and gets excited when she is around it, like anyone else. In our society we end up dismissing people like that and I think it is a real tragedy, our lens is very narrow.
I play for people with disabilities as often as I can, so I see that the response to the music from them is the same as the response from the able bodied audience.